Being bisexual and an activist for about every damn think I can think of at 11:30am, I confront them. To me, it doesn't matter if I'm doing it directly to them or speaking for someone else, they need to SHUT UP!!

This weekend sucked balls. The main reasons?

1) Alanna didn't come over. She got pissed at her teacher for very wrongfully giving her an F when she should have gotten a B. She got suspended AND had to go to Saturday school. *sigh* At least she's coming over (hopefully) next Thursday and staying for Halloween.

2) This weekend was also the night of the Hollywood Undead concert that Alanna, Nick, and I were supposed to go to... but guess who couldn't drive down?!

3)I wish everyone would just shut the fuck up about how much fun they had at homecoming. Guess whose school doesn't have a homecoming?!?!

Ugh. Fuck my life.
teenagelifecangosuckonacock

Okay, I just feel like making a crapton of entries (well, okay, RANTS) today, so just deal with it. :]

Okay, before I go any further, I want to announce this- I NEED NEW LJ FRIENDS!
I feel pathetic having virtually NO ONE on my friends list except one who hasn't been online in months- wait, a year- and a bot that Livejournal fails to delete... Ugh. So, if you like;
-System of a Down
-Green Day
-Eureka Seven
-Pokemon
or
-The Sims,
LET ME KNOW!!! I iz friendless!! T.T

"Uhm, I stopped wearing all black, Mom."
That exchange between me and my mom took place last Saturday. After going shopping at Bealls for clothes and shoes (we may have overdone it, judging by how loud my dad screamed at the reciept), my mom opened my closet to find (for once) a burst of color. My wardrobe went from ONLY dark jeans, black shirts, and black Converse All-Stars, all the way to colored skinny jeans, animal print leggings, neon colored shirts, brightly colored sneakers, and colorful accessories. Okay, okay, I kept my band shirts, but that's only for sentimental reasons and, well, because I like the bands.
Another thing my mom was SO not ready for was my music. Aside from my love Green Day, my taste in music changed. I went from listening to depressing, sob-worthy music to energetic and upbeat, with aLOT of thrash metal (with the occasional screamo song). For instance, I went from A.F.I. and Secondhand Serenade to LOVING System of a Down and Hollywood Undead.
I have alot of reasons for this improvement and change in me. The number one reason?
Letting go.
If you do read my LiveJournal, and you look back at all my posts, you'll read about Will. Back on August 21st, we let go of each other. It was hard. It hurt. It felt like I was being sucked into an endless black hole. But now... we're friends
I've noticed that miracles come in so many forms. Letting go was one miracle. The second was the support I recieved from all but a few of my friends (they know who they are<3).
The third and the most important miracle was (er, IS) a really sweet guy I knew back in middle school named Nick Vogt. He was so sweet to me when I was going through all that. He gave me a shoulder to cry on. He was always there to talk when I needed to unload my pain. After all of that, I had developed... feelings for him. Yeah, I know, it was really soon, leave me alone. This is what happened on 9-1-09.

Each one of these songs have been played at least 25 times this summer, and they all somehow fell into place with an event. I suggest you look each of these songs up- they're all great!
(They're formatted like this-
Song:
Artist:
Album:
Enjoy!)

15- Parasailing in Marco Island
"Still Alive"
Ellen McClain (GLaDOS)
Portal: Music from the Game

14- Getting my 1st OFFICIAL Cell Phone :D
"Smells Like Teen Spirit"
Nirvana
Nevermind

13- Singing for YouTube Masses Without Any Fear
"Radio/Video"
System of a Down
Mezmerize

11- Standing Up To People Hurting Me
"Atwa"
System of a Down
Toxicity

10- Driving a John Deere Tractor Down A Busy Road With My Cousins
"Young"
Hollywood Undead
Swan Songs

9- Beating Every Rock Band 2 Song On Hard/Expert
"East Jesus Nowhere"
Green Day
21st Century Breakdown

8- My Sole Visit With Will
"Addicted"
Saving Abel
Saving Abel

7- Losing Weight and Feeling Better About Myself
"They Say"
Scars on Broadway
Scars on Broadway

6- Seeing Andrew!
"5/4"
Gorillaz
Gorillaz

5- Reconnecting with Sarah
"Hey Mama"
The Black Eyed Peas
Elephunk

4- Getting Behind The Wheel
"Honking Antelope"
Serj Tankian
Elect The Dead

3- Staying Together With Will
"21 Guns"
Green Day
21st Century Breakdown

2- Growing Into A Stronger Person
"Them Bones"
Alice In Chains
Nothing Safe: Best of the Box

1- Hearing The Best Song of 2009!!
"Aerials"
System of a Down
Toxicity

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This summer, I experienced more than I thought possible. I did things I was terrified of (parasailing, cough cough), tried new experiences (I ♥ fruit sushi!), and experiened feelings that proved I'm much stronger. I sang for a crowd (and for YouTube viewers!) and I finally mastered every Rock Band song on hard/expert. I conquered my fear of getting behind the wheel, lost 30 pounds, and went vegetarian. I also went on temporary hiatus with Will, but we got through it (3 days of pureile hell!!).
I've grown up alot. I'm no longer that chubby, depressed loner with an accidental "Women's Prison haircut" (← gotta love my mom). I'm much more confident. I am a whole different person, and with that I give you the above entry...

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I have decided that we're putting surround sound in the stalkermobile.

And I've come up with a movie line-up for our movie night! :D
-Lily Reto-

Bizenghast vol. 6 was amazing. I'm so excited for volume 7... the last one in the series! *sob*
Anyways, I'm pretty sick right now. I'm dealing with simaltaneous strep and pink eye. I've been basically spending my days on MySpace and the phone, watching DVDs, and sleeping.
Argh. I miss Will... and my bestie ALANNA!
Ally~

I GOT BIZENGHAST VOLUME 6!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[The subject line is the "punch line" of of one of my many blonde moments. The first part is too long to write.]

Okay, first things first- I AM COLD!!! It's like 8:30 (I'm in Rhode Island), the sun has long since set, and I'm wrapped up under a wool blanket. At least I have internet access this summer.

Over the past few weeks, I have frequently visited the library for volumes 4-22 of Fruits Basket. Well, on Monday I went to Barnes and Noble and said "Screw it, I'm just gonna buy 23 while I'm here." I read it on the plane, and I gotta say that it was a very satisfying conclusion. Now I'm just waiting for Bizenghast vol. 6 (OMG, HURRY UP, AUGUST 1ST!!) and the final Chibi Vampire. T_T I love that series so much... Oh well, at least Dinah, Edrear, and that damned green cat will keep me company.

I have also found that Rayman: Raving Rabbids 2 is an epically amazing game. And that the employees (and the manager) at GameStop in Apopka (by my house) know me by name. Damn, that's nerdy.

Alright, well I'm off to stand in front of an open flame.
Ally xoxo

http://wonderwall.msn.com/movies/-Harry-Potter-star-Jamie-Waylett-faces-pot-charges-1517886.story?GT1=28135

Poor Bugger....

So... today I went to Barnes & Noble, because I'm going to Will Boutwell's birthday party on Saturday. I got two things for him:



and




I'm sure he'll love them.

AND IN RECENT MANGA NEWS!

Bizenghast vol. 6 is out August 1st! I was SO THRILLED to be able to read the first 35 pages online (http://www.tokyopop.com/product/1398/Bizenghast/6)! Also, at B&N today,, guess what I got!



w00t!!!

-Ally-

Ducks and Penguins!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I had a dream last night that made me think alot about life. I was sitting against a wall, crying. At first I didn't know where I was. All I knew that it felt familiar. It had a safe, warm feeling, kind of like the feeling you get when you're wrapped up in a blanket on your bed in the middle of winter with a book and cup of coffee (or tea, in some people's cases. ;] ). Sometimes you get that feeling when you're lying in bed listening to music. For me, I get that feeling when with Will, usually when I'm tired and he puts his arms around me and starts singing to me. I know it sounds cheesey, but those moments are what I live for.
Anyways, back to my dream. I was crying, but I had no idea why. I lifted my head and saw that I was sitting on my bed with my back to the wall IN MY OLD HOUSE. Now, a lot of you don't know this, but I miss my old house in Georgia SO MUCH. It's weird, because some morinings I'll wake up and leave my room, expecting to see the balcony, stairs, and the double doors to my parents' old room. Then I see the kitchen table and the TV and the back of the couch. That's when I crash-land back into reality. Or sometimes, it's worse. I'll be bored on a Friday afternoon or a Saturday morning, go up to my mom, and ask, "Hey Mom, can Tiffany and Katelyn spend the night?" Then she'll look at me funny and say, "Sweety... they live in Georgia." Then my heart sinks and I walk away feeling sad and alone. THAT'S how much I miss GA. But in the dream, I was there, in my old room. Every thing was the same; The cast iron day bed, the window seat my dad built, the bamboo dresser we sold before we moved, the pink walls with the floral wallpaper that looked like an elderly lady with buck teeth in each flower, the walk-in closet with the blue walls and unexpainable toothpaste stain on the wall, even the white and pink end table thing with the chipping paint, it was ALL THERE! Then I looked over at my window seat, and WILL was sitting there! He was sitting there smiling, but he looked... older. Not like dentures/white hair/in need of Depends old, but like in his early/mid- twenties. He looked at me and said, "So, do you like it?"
It took a minute to figure out what he was saying. Suddenly, I saw my reflection in my old mirror. It was definitley me but... It was like future me. Then, it hit me- Will had bought my old house in Georgia for us to live and raise a family in,

After having that dream, I realized this.
Everyone has a path to take. The thing is, EVERYONE chooses their OWN path. Yeah, people can sometimes INFLUENCE our decision of what to do with their life. I have chosen to spend the rest of eternity with Will. I would like to move to the UP of Michigan (Like Holly once said, quoting her aunt, "My heart is in the UP but my ass is stuck here."), go to technical college and get a degree in computer repairs or whatever the hell the name for it is, and have some kids. I would love to raise a family one day.
The thing is, two years ago, that would have been nowhere NEAR my life's ambition now. I had wanted to become a gothic clothing designer, live in Seattle or Oregon, and live in a small studio apartment with black walls with candles instead of lamps and black curtains- actually, no windows.
But now you see how one person can truly affect another person's future. I am a whole different person because of Will. I probably definitley wouldn't have made it with out Will. Sorry in advance for mentally disturbing you, but if it weren't for Will, I would be a) six feet under, b) at the bottom of a large body of water, or c) hanging from a branch somewhere.
So, what I'm basically saying is this: You never know who or what will come along in your life. Things could be really crappy right now, but most likely, it will all turn out fine in the end.
And I'm living proof.


"You may be just one person to the world, but you may the world to one person." -Anonymous

*snortlaugh*

I would kick the crap out of them. They know it. Which is funny because this year, I had no green to wear to school. I really didn't want to get pinched, so I drew a huge green circle on my fist. I didn't realize it would be intimidating until I shook my fist at them- not because I was threatening them, but because I was only showing them the circle.

Yeah... No pinch for me!

It's the luck 'o' the Irish I tell ya!

RIght now, I'm pissed.
It seemed like my life was getting better, but boy was I wrong. My second day back at school after Christmas break, Will got grounded. He JUST got un-grounded SATURDAY. I mean, yeah, he'd sneak the phone and internet and DS voice chat. But he was always whispering and shit, and that just SUCKS when I'm trying to hear him and I can barely make out what he's trying to say.
What REALLY sucks is that I haven't seen him outside of school in 2 months. That a hell of a long time for us to not go on a date.
What really messed up my mind was Friday. I was blinded by rage (and PMS) and hit Will with a workbook. I hit him. With a book. I HIT MY LOVE WITH A BOOK. Does you even COMPREHEHND how BIG that is????? I love him more than my life, and like a dumbass I HIT HIM?????? I felt like crap that whole weekend. I mean sure, he spent the whole night with me on Friday night until 9am on Saturday, but I still cried almost the whole time. He forgave me, so why do I still feel like the biggest asshole on the whole planet?
Anyways, on to my next problem - my dad. Sarah and I were in the car yesterday, and I needed a Slurpee because I thought it would help my sore throat. Im'm standing in line when suddenly he walking in the store and starts yelling at me, thinking I'm actually stealing something! I could NEVER steal from a store, a person, restaurant, ANYWHERE. I feel bad when I give away a stuffed animal! I am NOT the kind of person who steals!!!!! My dad starts yelling at me and saying stupid shit like, "What's in your bag?!" and, "What's that lump in your pocket?!" I have never been so embarassed in my life!
Look, I'm gonna get going. I'm just really depressed and I wanna take a nap. I'm just confused about what to with my life. This sucks...
♥
Ally

I GOT A NEW DESKTOP COMPUTER!!!!!!!
And my birthday was amazing!!!
Gotta go!
♥
Ally