Writer's Block: Yes, offense taken

If a friend or relative makes a racist or homophobic remark, do you tend to confront them or let it slide? Are you more likely to confront them if it offends you directly or someone else who seems reluctant to speak up?
Being bisexual and an activist for about every damn think I can think of at 11:30am, I confront them. To me, it doesn't matter if I'm doing it directly to them or speaking for someone else, they need to SHUT UP!!
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Well.... fuck.

This weekend sucked balls. The main reasons?

1) Alanna didn't come over. She got pissed at her teacher for very wrongfully giving her an F when she should have gotten a B. She got suspended AND had to go to Saturday school. *sigh* At least she's coming over (hopefully) next Thursday and staying for Halloween.

2) This weekend was also the night of the Hollywood Undead concert that Alanna, Nick, and I were supposed to go to... but guess who couldn't drive down?!

3)I wish everyone would just shut the fuck up about how much fun they had at homecoming. Guess whose school doesn't have a homecoming?!?!

Ugh. Fuck my life.
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This is MY day to post!!!

Okay, I just feel like making a crapton of entries (well, okay, RANTS) today, so just deal with it. :]

Okay, before I go any further, I want to announce this- I NEED NEW LJ FRIENDS!
I feel pathetic having virtually NO ONE on my friends list except one who hasn't been online in months- wait, a year- and a bot that Livejournal fails to delete... Ugh. So, if you like;
-System of a Down
-Green Day
-Eureka Seven
-The Sims,
LET ME KNOW!!! I iz friendless!! T.T

"What the hell happened to your closet?"

"Uhm, I stopped wearing all black, Mom."
That exchange between me and my mom took place last Saturday. After going shopping at Bealls for clothes and shoes (we may have overdone it, judging by how loud my dad screamed at the reciept), my mom opened my closet to find (for once) a burst of color. My wardrobe went from ONLY dark jeans, black shirts, and black Converse All-Stars, all the way to colored skinny jeans, animal print leggings, neon colored shirts, brightly colored sneakers, and colorful accessories. Okay, okay, I kept my band shirts, but that's only for sentimental reasons and, well, because I like the bands.
Another thing my mom was SO not ready for was my music. Aside from my love Green Day, my taste in music changed. I went from listening to depressing, sob-worthy music to energetic and upbeat, with aLOT of thrash metal (with the occasional screamo song). For instance, I went from A.F.I. and Secondhand Serenade to LOVING System of a Down and Hollywood Undead.
I have alot of reasons for this improvement and change in me. The number one reason?
Letting go.
If you do read my LiveJournal, and you look back at all my posts, you'll read about Will. Back on August 21st, we let go of each other. It was hard. It hurt. It felt like I was being sucked into an endless black hole. But now... we're friends
I've noticed that miracles come in so many forms. Letting go was one miracle. The second was the support I recieved from all but a few of my friends (they know who they are<3).
The third and the most important miracle was (er, IS) a really sweet guy I knew back in middle school named Nick Vogt. He was so sweet to me when I was going through all that. He gave me a shoulder to cry on. He was always there to talk when I needed to unload my pain. After all of that, I had developed... feelings for him. Yeah, I know, it was really soon, leave me alone. This is what happened on 9-1-09.


There Are No Words For This...

My life through itunes shuffle
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My life through itunes shuffle
What do i think of my mother?: Shoplifter (Green Day)
What do i think of my father?: Intoxication (Disturbed)
What describes my siblings?: Harder, Better, Faster, Stronger (Daft Punk)
Did I have a happy childhood?: Cigaro (System of a Down)
What kind of person was I?: Minority (Green Day)
High School
What was high school like?: Prison Song (System of a Down)
Was I a good student?: Alive (Pearl Jam)
Did I party a lot?: Toxicity (System of a Down)
what describes my first love?: 21 Guns (Green Day)
Do I have a boyfriend/Girlfriend?: Hell Yeah! (American Hi-Fi) [omg.. this is perfect]
Do I like someone?: Use Me (Hinder)
What was today like?: In Pieces (Linkin Park)
What are most days like?: Holiday (Green Day)
Whats my life like?: Somewhere I Belong (Linkin Park)
What is in store for this weekend?: Psycho (System of a Down)
What song describes my parents?: If Everyone Cared (Nickelback)
How is my life going?: Wonderwall (Oasis)
Do i act my age?: Lie Lie Lie (Serj Tankian) [lawlz perfect]
What song will they play at my funeral?: Chicken Hunting (Insane Clown Posse)
Wedding?: Black Dahlia (Hollywood Undead)
How does the world see me?: Smells Like Teen Spirit (Nirvana)
Will I have a happy life?: Shoot Me Again (Metallica) [omfg that is perfect]
What do my friends really think of me?: Before The Lobotomy (Green Day)
Do people secretly lust after me?: Restless Heart Syndrome (Green Day)
How can I make myself happy?: Miss Murder (A.F.I.)
Whats my family think of me?: Lost In Hollywood (System of a Down)
What should I do with my life?: Wake Me Up When September Ends (Green Day)
What is my signature dancing song?: This Cocaine Makes Me Feel Like I'm On This Song (System of a Down)
What do I think my current theme song is?: Aerials (System of a Down) [omg... it actually is...]
What does everyone else think my current theme song is?: Peacemaker (Green Day)
What is my life theme song?: I Am The Walrus (The Beatles)
What best describes my life?: Last Of The American Girls (Green Day)
What best describes my friends?: Under The Influence (Eminem) [bahahahaha]
What best describes the person i like?: Sexy (Black Eyes Peas) [omfg...]
Have you had sex?: Pain Redefined (Disturbed) [AHAHAHA!!!!!]
How will you die?: Someday (Nickelback) xD
What describes my worst enemy?: Murder City (Green Day) :D :D :D
Do i enjoy life?: Jackass (Green Day)
Am i a good person?: She's Like Heroin (System of a Down)
Do i make others happy?: Still Alive (GLaDOS)
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My Summer 2009 Playlist

Each one of these songs have been played at least 25 times this summer, and they all somehow fell into place with an event. I suggest you look each of these songs up- they're all great!
(They're formatted like this-

15- Parasailing in Marco Island
"Still Alive"
Ellen McClain (GLaDOS)
Portal: Music from the Game

14- Getting my 1st OFFICIAL Cell Phone :D
"Smells Like Teen Spirit"

13- Singing for YouTube Masses Without Any Fear
System of a Down

11- Standing Up To People Hurting Me
System of a Down

10- Driving a John Deere Tractor Down A Busy Road With My Cousins
Hollywood Undead
Swan Songs

9- Beating Every Rock Band 2 Song On Hard/Expert
"East Jesus Nowhere"
Green Day
21st Century Breakdown

8- My Sole Visit With Will
Saving Abel
Saving Abel

7- Losing Weight and Feeling Better About Myself
"They Say"
Scars on Broadway
Scars on Broadway

6- Seeing Andrew!

5- Reconnecting with Sarah
"Hey Mama"
The Black Eyed Peas

4- Getting Behind The Wheel
"Honking Antelope"
Serj Tankian
Elect The Dead

3- Staying Together With Will
"21 Guns"
Green Day
21st Century Breakdown

2- Growing Into A Stronger Person
"Them Bones"
Alice In Chains
Nothing Safe: Best of the Box

1- Hearing The Best Song of 2009!!
System of a Down

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Summer 2009

This summer, I experienced more than I thought possible. I did things I was terrified of (parasailing, cough cough), tried new experiences (I ♥ fruit sushi!), and experiened feelings that proved I'm much stronger. I sang for a crowd (and for YouTube viewers!) and I finally mastered every Rock Band song on hard/expert. I conquered my fear of getting behind the wheel, lost 30 pounds, and went vegetarian. I also went on temporary hiatus with Will, but we got through it (3 days of pureile hell!!).
I've grown up alot. I'm no longer that chubby, depressed loner with an accidental "Women's Prison haircut" (← gotta love my mom). I'm much more confident. I am a whole different person, and with that I give you the above entry...

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Oh, wow....

Bizenghast vol. 6 was amazing. I'm so excited for volume 7... the last one in the series! *sob*
Anyways, I'm pretty sick right now. I'm dealing with simaltaneous strep and pink eye. I've been basically spending my days on MySpace and the phone, watching DVDs, and sleeping.
Argh. I miss Will... and my bestie ALANNA!